Victory Confession # 2

Confession:

I'm happy, not crappy!

One of the books I got at the library talks about positive affirmations. That's one of mine. Catchy right?..I thought so. So, the past few days I've been saying it over and over again, out loud.  I've been in a great mood the past few days, I've felt energetic and alive.  It's been great to feel the old me raging forward.  Funny story:

When I went running on Monday, I went by my self.  My nose usually runs and I'm constantly sniffing trying to keep the snot from running into my mouth.  When I can't stand it anymore I do a "Farmer blow" that's what we called it back home.  A lot of other people call it a "Snot-rocket" ...you know...where you plug one side and shoot the snot out the other nostril and then switch and do the other side.  This is the farthest thing from gross to me.  I grew up with people doing it around me all the time.  I remember seeing my Dad do it and I wanted to do it so I copied him and shot the snot right onto my shirt. No worries, I'm pro now. We would also do it during soccer games to distract the other players on the field.  We'd shoot it right onto their shoes and they'd fahh-reak out. Ahhhh, good times.


So running on Monday....I did the "Farmer blow" and when I looked up there were a group of boys playing basketball that stopped and were staring at me and making really disgusted faces. I looked at them and said, "What? You've never seen snot before? Would you rather me be polite and ask to blow it on your shirt?...I'm happy, not crappy!" ...and kept running.  And it was true, I was happy.   I thought I was rather funny and couldn't stop laughing, which resulted in me, getting out of breath and choking on ..well , choking on air. And I had to slow down.


I had a light bulb moment of sorts today during today's run.  I realized that I have all the tools to have a happy life.  It was like one of those moments where you've known about this "thing" your whole life but you internalize it for the first time and it changes your life. Yup, had one of those. Needless to say, I've felt great.


I'm mending.  I'm happy, not crappy.